I have to write English passages regularly to improve my English writing skill.
This diary is one of the good opportunities that I can make use of.
So I made the resolution to write in English here.
What matters is how long I can continue this new habit.
I accepted my sesonal bonus today.
Considering my productivity at work, it's more than enough.
I'd like to buy a new watch.
But to choose a best watch for me is a difficult task.
The watch should be suitable to me.
To invest my full energy in tasks at work is difficult for me.
Often, it seems to me there is another activity for which I should spare my energy.
But such a thouht leads to failure at workplace.
And it means less salary and less freedom in future.
Perhaps, I shoud work more industriously instead of studying English hard.
But to work well and to study well might be compatible.
I accept the result of 簿記二級.
I could scrape through the examination.
Considering the limited time for preparation, my adjustment to accounting field might be said rather smooth.
Today, I practice the integrated task of TOEFL writing.
Of course, there is much room to be improved.
But It seems to me I will be able to get good score in TOEFL wrinting sooner or later.
Often, the first step gives me the confidence which I need to reach the destination.
Today, I attempt to write about 300words passage in thirty minutes to practice independent writing task in TOEFL.
I found it quite challenging to write well-organized sentences in limited time.
To get high score, various vocabulary and structure are needed.
And I must offer convincing reasons and examples speedily. That's difficult for me.
Anyway, I have to practice continually so that I can obtain a decent score in TOEFL writing.
Simply typing good example passage I found in the textbooks or website could improve my skiis to write in English.
Imitation is always the best way to learn something new. By typing a lot of sentences which differs in gramaticl structure, I could gather many expressions.
Moreover, if I continue to write many sentences everyday, day by day, it becomes easier for me.
In breif, custom is secondl nature, as Aristotle said.
Today I heard that I will get an opportunity to utilize my English skills in the not so distant future.
That news increased my motivation.
Perhaps, I should focus on strengthening speaking skills.
However, listening and writing abilities are closely connected to speaking skills.
When I write a sentence in English, I choose appropriate words and grammatical structure in my mind.
That process in my mind is the same as that when I speak in English.
Further, I cannot pronounce phrases well which I cannot hear.
That is why I should improve comprehensive skills concerning English even though speaking is the most important.
It's really surprising to recognise how greatly my character changed by the change of surrounding people.
Good people reproduce good people.
I should be grateful to their kindness.
I'd like to do my best to meet and exceed their expectations.
I feel my growth day by day.
Due to the continuous listening of English podcast over months, my listening ability was certainly ameliorated.
The experience of exceeding the wall that at initial glance seems very tall gives me confidence that I can learn to do everything by habitual practices.
This cycle of successes is perhaps one of the most important keys of a good life.
Success creates confidence. Confidence enables more tenacious effort that could lead to another success.
Today, I took TOEFL practice test 2.
In the reading section, Ｉcould get a decent score.
Listening is more difdicult. To answer precirely, my memory must be tenacious.
To keep in mind spoken words for a while needs some kind of knack.
Only by habitual practices Ｉcould acquire requisite skills.
I found Siri is quite helpful when I want to check my pronunciation.
Understanding spoken English precisely is quite challenging to non-native listeners including me.
The difference between Intermittent understanding and almost complete understanding is huge.
To fill the gap, I'd better check the script if when is available.
Taking the availability of script into consideration, 60 seconds science podcast might be best choice.
Today, it was extraordinary hot. How I wish I could live in cooler districts or countiries.
I participated in Nominication yesterday and came back home at midnight.
Thus I don't have enough time and energy to write this English journal.
Today it wasn't so hot and I was pleased.
Hot climate really harasses me.
I like winter much better than summer.
Surprisingly enough I came to like Nominication somewhat.
Conversation between familiar people don't hassle me a lot.
Although I'm introvert, helpful remarks and interesting information obtained in Nominication shouldn't be ignored.
Human's adaptability is really dramatic.
Therefore we shouldn't think we cannot do anything even if it seems quite challenging at first sight.
Although there are various tasks at workplace, what is most important for a worker is not technical skill but human skill.
To be a person who can attract others might be a ultimate goal for workers.
Today, I participated in English speaking class after a long time.
It has been over 3 or 4 months since the last time I took part in any English class.
I found my English speaking skills were somewhat improved through continuous practices.
Day by day,I become able to speak in English better.
It is quite important to continue my efforts and get a sense of growth and achievement which leads to a confidence.
As expected, Liberal Democratic Party of Japan increase its seats in the House of Councilors.
Election always seems to be an entertainment even if its result are not surprising.
Especially TV program lead by Akira Ikegami is popular and informative.
I participated in English speaking class.
I should have more prepared for today.
Continuing rather simple practices such as memorizing useful phrases and mouthing is quite important for a learner.
I watched Japanese Professional Baseball All Star game on TV.
I'm somewhat frustrated.
Today, I could not do what I think I should do.
I tend to watch TV much and fiddle with a smartphone frequently when I am distempered.
In most case, just taking some actions like singing or reading or studying can solve the problem.
But sometimes I'd better review my current objective, plan, and daily assignment to renew them.
Today, I could write 300 words over passage answering TOEFL independent task question in about 30 minutes.
Certainly, I am now able to write better sentences faster than before I begin writing practices.
Believe in yourself and keep going. That's the key to be successful in any fields.
Recently, I has become a relatively competent Excel user.
Pivot table and pivot graph is quite convenient.
But I couldn't figure out the merit of Access and how and when to use it.
Probably, by learning basic knowledge of Access I would be able to do my jobs more effectively.
The power of IT tools are tremendous at modern workplace.
Gradually, but certainly my English writing and speaking skills are strengthened.
I really want to meet the expectations of people who believe in me.
Many things which initially seemed very challenging I can do rather easily now.
Keep believing in myself and going with gratitude.
Today, I spent a lot of time on reading article about the 16 personality.
In this domain, English website is much more informative than Japanese one.
Especially, 16 personality site is quite interesting.
Presumably, I could do better with the strength and weakness of my character in my mind.
It seems to me I have summer heat fatigue.
After coming back home, I cannot study as well as I used to.
Perhaps, sufficient rest could solve this problem
Strangely enough, often a person who came across incompetent yesterday seems much more competent today.
Don,t belittle anyone.
Keep be humble and learning a lot speedily.
The rainy season ended and it is quite hot today.
I participated in English speaking class.
Despite of some preparation and memorizing some useful phrases, it was still challenging for me to speak well-organized words in limited time.
But I'm sure I improved my English speaking skills day by day even if it's not a quite speedy process.
Writing is very closely connected to speaking because it also requires composition of English sentences in my mind.
Therefore also by continuing this journal, I can certainly strengthen my speaking skills.
Yuriko Koike won the election of Tokyo Governor.
No surprise there.
Her response to criticism is relatively sophisticated and she is good at making advantageous impression.
I should learn from her how to attract people's attention and gather acolytes.
The biggest challenge to me was always to establish good relationship with unfamiliar people.
I always find it difficult to offer emotionally attractive responses.
However I realized that there are many who attempt to be social dispite of their opposite nature.
One of them is my colleague who seems very attractive and kind but actually is quite introverted.
To improve my English speaking ability.
I have to compose a lot of English sentences in my mind frequently.
I always find it difficult to make correct sentences which exactly describes what I really want to say.
Writing is relatively easy because in writing I have sufficient time to think about which structure I should use.
You might wonder why there is less time for composing in speaking than in writing.
Certainly, you will soon realize the reason when you actually try to speak in English.
In speaking, you cannot leave parts of a sentence which you already make anywhere except for your memory.
Therefore you have to complete your sentences speedily before your brain erase former parts of the sentences.
For not so mature English speaker, this process is pretty frustrating.
But the solution to this problem is quite clear.
Just keep practicing a lot day by day. That the only way for you to overcome this difficulty.
Probably speedy writing also would be beneficial.
Practice a lot and keep many useful phrases and grammatical construction in my mind.
That's the key point.
How difficult it is for non-native English users to compose correct sentences speedily.
That needs a lot of practice.
First of all, to judge which is a correct phrase and grammatical structure you have to read a lot.
After extensive reading, you can feel something is wrong with a sentence when it has some problems.
Considering that, reading a lot and writing a lot are essential key to be successful in English writing and speaking.
Perhaps I should almost always try to describe daily events and situations in English.
It can be a step toward speedy composing.
Today I watched the YouTube movie made by Atsu, who is famous English blogger.
He insists improvement of English speaking skills will certainly make good effect on writing skills.
In speaking, you have very limited time to complete a sentence.
That is why instant composing is essential and that skill is quite helpful when you write in English speedily.
That his point and I totally agree with him.
I practiced speaking by talking to myself.
It is much harder practice than imagined, but the increase of opportunities to speak in English is quite important.
Day bay day I will be able to write correct sentences with more diverse expressions and grammatical structures.
Today, the inbound train I always get on is much less crowded.
It seems to me many businss men are in their summer vacaton.
Every year in this season, the highways are filled with cars because many people go to their hometown
If they can take their leave in different weak as they like, that kind of problem would be easlly solved.
In some companies, employees can choose when they start their summer vacation.
That sounds rational.
Describing daily events and situations in English is really difficult but it worth a shot.
Soon I realized how big difference there is between shadowing and speaking.
In speaking, you have to compose correct sentences for yourself.
Even quite simple event like trimming nail is not so easy to be described loud.
Firstly, I thought it good time to cut my nail.
Then I pull out a drawer to find a nail clipper.
And I cut my toenail and fingernail using it.
After that I put it back on the drawer.
Actually, I couldn't come up with the phrase "pull out".
I should learn and keep in mind these easy daily phrases so that I can use them without considering.
Instantaneousness is a quite important factor in speaking English.
I'm sure my growth speed in speaking is being accelerated now.
How effective it is to increase the opportunity to speak in English by talking to myself.
Despite its simpleness its effect is tremendous.
I wish I had started this habit much earlier in my life.
Finding something effective is not sufficient.
You have to take an action based on that findings and make it a habit.
After you can succeed in making it a habit an incredible acceleration will ensue.
As a result of this acceleration, you could easily reach quite high level in any field.
Today, I participated in language learning and correcting website called Lang-8.
In Lang-8, you can have your writing corrected by native users.
In turn, you check accuracy of passages written by foreigner studying Japanese.
In short, there is cycle of favor.
Without your contribution to somebody, you cannot get correction.
Well-thought-out system!
After sufficient practice, I'd like to participate in site for speaking.
Recently, I can feel my growth speed is accelerated due to the increased opportunity to speak in English.
My brain is evolving into that of bilingual.
I am always prepared to make an English sentence in my head whereever I am.
I wish I could speak English in trains.
After I made this speaking habit, I find it frustrating to be unable to speak English while listening podcasts outside my home.
I realized what immersion means in language learnig field.
If you always think in that language which you want to learn, you will soon realize your growth.
Just translating every event, situation, thought, and remark into English is quite effective habit to be accustomed to think in English.
Today there is torrential rain probably due to the typhoon.
I went to the bank to perform some procedures and was soaked in the rain.
Its beginning was unpredictable.
That's why I didn't take with me an umbrella when I entered into bank.
As a result of that, I have to be soaked up in the rain though I have an umbrella in a car.
I should have entered into the bank with an umbrella.
As old maxim says, hindsight is 20/20.
After I realized there are many chance for speaking in English, it become pretty frustrating to me that I cannot fully utilize these opportunity when I'm in a train or walking in station.
How thoughtful my colleague surrounding me!
They are good at emotionally supporting others around them by saying jokes or kind remarks.
I'd like to learn communication skills from them.
Today, I read some excerpts ol Gackt's talk.
To my surprise, he is quite logical and his remarks worth reading.
His characteristic confidence and concistency are inarguably sources of his popularity.
Thinking the best strategy to attain given goal is quite interesting task for me.
I can utilize my full energy and intelligence when I can choose which methodology or strategy I use.
I heard Calbee's chairman Akira Matsumoto say If you want to nurture excellent employees you should give them discretion.
I totally agree with him.
Often, I find it quite difficult to admit my fault and learn new knowledge which is unfamiliar then.
Probably, a sort of pride makes me feel frustrated when I find I didn't understand what I thought I understood.
If I could always learn new things with gratitude to others around me, I could hone my skills much more effectively than I can do now.
I would like to become a mature man who can accept shame and errors to attain a great vision.
In the class, I could show my growth in making a short speech.
However, there is much room for improvement in my English speaking skills.
Although I'm sure I'm now making progress steadily, often I get frustrated to recognize the gap between actual learning speed and that of ideal.
Recently, I couldn't have access to this site for some times.
I feared this site and my journal was lost.
The power of the habit is really tremendous.
After I make English journal my daily habit, I find it somewhat frustrating to postpone writing even one day.
I'm sure anyone who can establish robust habits according to his/her plans can always realize their Ideal.
I can feel now my learning process is being accelerated!
The best way to learn something effectively is without doubt maximizing the opportunities to practice it!
That's why talking to myself is desirable learning process.
I don't have to find any partner and wait someone.
I'm a speaker, a listener, and a coach!
September came.
The end of the summer is now closing.
Although I don't like summer because it's too hot and I really hate perspiration, even I feel somewhat sad when the summer is ending.
That sadness is similar to that we feel while watching the sanset.
Perhaps we would have such kind of sentiment, when we realize we are slowly moving to our shared destination called death.
I should and want to fully utilize my energy and time avaiable in my life to attain my vision so that I won't regret anything when I face my death.
Today, I made easy errors which could have been avoided with sufficient notice.
After I get somewhat accustomed to new tasks I tend to handle it inadvertently.
In a sense, that is not so bad because it reflects my confidence ana growth.
However there is a clear difference between doing some taskes effortlessly and inadvertently.
I should deal with familiar tasks with sufficient care and without any stress.
That is the modis operandi of a mature employee.
In the class, I could show the best performance which I was capable then.
Increasing opportunities strategy works really well.
The more I practice, the better my Englishspeaking and writing skill would be.
I should focus on these output skills because I have not gotten as much accustomed to them as to reading and listening.
In addition, most of the Japanese evaluate other's English proficiency almost only based on their fluency in speaking.
If I want to demonstrate my growth to others, the most effective way is to hone speaking skills intensely.
They are not interested in reading or lIstening abilites.
Today, I practiced a lot output skills.
I am now boosting my learning process especially in writing and speaking.
There is a sense of achiveing something.
At the end of the day, I succeeded in starting extensive practice on daiy basis!
I cannot be satisfied with my performance in the English class today.
I made some repitition and pauses in my presentation.
However, Ifound out I was able to keep clear pronunciaton under classroom pressure. That is great difference to me.
Now I realized the only difficulties I have to overcome to be a proficient user of English is the speed of the composing.
Speaking is similar to writing except for its instantness.
To get sufficient composing speed I will practice speaking a lot.
Even when I get frustrated, I can encourage myself by starting daily asignments I set up for myself.
The power of the habitutation is really tremendous.
I really want to accelerate my learning.
Although I can feel I grow rapidly,
Today, I visited my grand father's house.
He told me his life story.
Considering that everyone has to accept the death someday, I think we shouldn't waste our precious time by doing what we don't really want to.
Today I listened various famous western popular music.
After singing some parts of songs, I found that the most popular songs generally have simple structure.
In my opinion, blue suede shoes is easy to sing.
I fee like mastering some western song including blue suede shoes.
Although I'm introverted and don't want to sing a song sourrounded by others, I really like singing by myself!
Whenever I interact with colleagues in other section, I find coworkers in my section are really thoughtful and kind people.
I like the atmosphere and the human relationship in my section.
I'm coovinced that I will be a proficient English speaker with a little moie effors and practices.
I have a robust learning strategy and the only thing I need more to attain my vision is just to contiue practice based on my plan.
I have to establish strong self-confidence!
With confidence, I can plesantly listen advice from colleagues and learn new things effectively.
From my childhood, I almost always tried to avoid any shame as possible.
From now on, I'd rather expose my self to embarrasing situations when it leads to boosted learning.
I should learn all the things in a dignified and polite manner.
Today, I could show better performance in the class than I could previously.
Without doubt, my English composing speed was accelerated.
However, there are still many basic words and phrases which I should be able to use as active vocabulary.
Knowing the meanings of the words and using them in sentences I make by myself is totally different.
I should focus on broadening my active vocabulary so that I could use various expressions to precisely describe what I think about.
I thought about how English skills could heighten my salary.
At my workplace, there is no urgent need for a proficient English user.
Furthermore, even when it comes to getting a new job, there would be fierce competition among the highly educated advanced learners.
Without doubt, there are many Japanese who raised in UK and US or got a degree in countries in which English is spoken.
In short, English capability is now rather commoditized in Japan.
It is not easy even for the advanced users of English to get a well-paid job.
Otherwise, English teaching schools in Japan couldn't have so many teacher who have a Master degree of famous university in US.
Or are they offering a decent wage conditions to these proficient English users? I don't know the detail.
In anyway, I can really enjoy the process of learning.
To be more exact, the process of overcoming challenging difficulties.
Although English capability doesn't necessarily lead to a well-paid job, at least it would give me strong self-confidence.
I think it is an important aspect of this learning process.
I found out Eiken's past examinations are available on its official website.
I think I could get a decent score in the vocabulary, reading, and listeningsection.
As I thought before, my weak point is output skills.
Especially I should focus on speaking.
Today, I talk with siri a lot.
It was difficult for me to distinguish "l" from "r".
However after some practices, siri understood much more my words than previously.
Perhaps, by talking to siri periodically I could improve my pronunciation.
I think I should polish my way of communication.
Perhaps I could interact with my colleagues more smothly than I can now.
Of course, I would be able to horn my talking skills indeliberately by the accumulation of the daily interactions.
However, with specific intention, I could accelerate my learning speed hugely.
The temperature is much lower now than a week ago.
Due to this radical change of climate conditions, I couldn't study a lot today.
Perhaps I should do some pastime to get my energy back.
It occurs to me from time to time until when I should continue to focus on English learning.
Without doubt, there are many things to do.
However, I have to go beyond a sort of threshold.
Otherwise, my effort won't pay off.
When it comes to English, I think TOEFLibt100 and IELTS7.5 is a good indicator of the skills.
Thus I should continue to invest most of my energy in English at least before I can attain this vision.
One of the prospective employees showed an admirable attitude.
She can face to everyone with smile.
She can behave in a polite and amiable way.
I think I should learn something from her to be a mature person.
How difficult it is to focus on listening while sitting or standing in a train.
Train is too noisy to practce listening.
train.
To make ij worse, I tend to fiddle with my smartphone to find an interesting information on the Internet.
It is a really bad habit for all the learners.
Multitasking dramatically decreases the effect of learning.
I should avoid it to accelerate learn processes.
Today, I read my note for reading.
I'm really surprised to find out how many interesting ideas I forgot.
Although I read, found interesting concepts, and took note, I always easily forget these precious thoghts.
I think I should refer to these notes for reading more frequently so that I can always keep important and basic ideas in my mind.
Especially, I was impressed with Aristotle's idea about welj-being.
Today, there was really embarrassing moment for me.
I had a lunch with prospective employees and board members.
Suddenly, my boss told me to do 締め.
I was really surprised and got nervous because I have no experience in leading 締め.
I faid to do 締め properly.
What a shame for me!
I exposed my weak points to all the prospective employees' eyes.
I think I have to accept that fact and make a step to improve myself so that I can hadle this task in not so distant future.
There are still many things I have to learn as an employees.
Being both confident and humble at the same time is difficult for me.
It seems to me a man who has authentic confidence can be humble whenever he wants.
But inmature people including me have to fake a virtue till I really get it.
In that case, faking of the confidence is in compatibie with that of modesty.
I feel now I'm changing my basic thought and character gradually.
I think this change is largely made by interaction with my colleagues.
Whenever I interact with somebody, I always find something to learn from the relationship with him or her.
Considering that, it is conceivable that working as an employee can be really good experience to be a mature man.
At workplace, I have conversations and relationships with various people.
Through this interaction, I can learn what others think and feel. Sometimes, I can get quite interesting insights.
Whenever we expose ourself to unfamiliar situations, we tend to get nervous.
That means we are out of our comfort zone.
This process is indispensable to be a mature man.
This week, there was a business trip to Osaka.
It was the first time for me to interact with foreigners in business context.
I found out that I could communicate with foreigners in English.
This experience really boosted my confidence.
I was really impressed by the activeness of a foreignner.
He talked a lot although his English was not perfect.
I think I should imitate his attitude.
I'm going to take TOEIC next Sunday.
However I couldn't ensure much time to prepare for TOEIC recently because I put emphasis on boosting my speaking capability to show my best performance in an international meeting.
Now. TOEIC is the most important short term goal.
So I shouldn't spare any effort to get a higher score.
I think I should accelerate the reading speed by readlng English a lot.
Experience is the omnipotent medicine to every difficulty.
In order to master socially desirable attitudes and behaviors, I have to continue trying what I think the best to do.
Certainly there will be some embarrasing moments.
I shouldn't worry abot them so much.
They are indispensable stages to be a mature man.
Learnig can bethe most pleasant activity for me.
To accelerate learning. I should be prepared for any embarassing moment.
Mature can behave in a dignifred manner elen when he try to unfamliliar tasks.
The season of performance appraisal has come.
I'm not sure how I should evaluate myself.
It is difficult for employees to review the performance of themselves.
Especially those who don't have colleague close in age have difficulty in realizing whether they are better than average employees or not.
I heard one of the colleagues who started working with me almost 2 years ago show really good performance.
I think I should work hard so that I can keep up with him.
To be more exact, I should make efforts to live beautifully so that I can be contented with myself.
My colleague said to me that I should interact with many people to know the pleasure of interaction.
She worried about my reserved and secretive character.
I knew I have a difficulty in communicating with others before she pointed that out.
I continued to work to improve my character.
Perhaps I should show my efforts and growth to her so that she can be relieved.
I can do better.
I think who knows what motivates himself is the most promising learner.
I accept hard work to be a more mature man who can live beautifully.
I'm really secretive.
I don't want to share my true feeling and idea wlth others around me.
Perhaps some past experiences make me behave in such a way.
Often, it seems to me that my preferences are totally different from those of others.
As usual, I participated in the English class.
My favorite classmate was absent and I really missed her.
Perhaps I should let her know my affection toword her and give contact information or just talk with her more.
The time I can share with her is very limited now.
My perspective changed gradually.
Recently I feel like working hard to get promoted.
I'm not sure what made me rethink my way of living.
Perhaps it's caused by my increased confidnce.
Due to the some successes at workplace, I'm now more confident than I was before.
I'm now in a goal setting phase.
I sometime spared much time for thinking about a next mid-term plan.
It seems to me I should study for 簿記1級 so that I can demonstrate my competence in accounting.
I should keep making efforts to hone my English skills.
After I made progress in English, I'm somewhat vulnerable to lukewarm satisfaction.
It is a really dangerous seduction.
I should pay a sufficient attention so that I won't be ensnared by that.
I'm sure I could do my task much better after some practices.
Recently, I'm highly motivated to be a competent worker.
It seems to me this motivation is partly boosted by the love for a woman.
I applied for TOEFLibt test.
I should do my best to get an acceptable score.
However, I find it somewhat difficult for me to concentrate on study for TOEFL.
There are a lof of things to do.
I should establish a plan so that I can avold spending much time on thinking about what I should do now and next.
Recently, I spent a lot of time on thinking about my life plan.
Distracted by various thoughts and worries. I couldn't study as planned.
Perhaps this situation is partially caused by my failure to establish a relationship with the woman I like.
I could identify that something is wrong with my current life plan through that experience.
Failure is not so pleasant but I think whenever I can identify my weakness I should keep optimistic view about my self.
Only after knowing the weak point, I can make efforts to overcome that.
In that sense, through a failure I succeed in getting a good hint to improve myself.
It is recently that I realized that my growth speed at workplace was accelerated significantly.
I'm sure I will soon catch up with colleagues much older than me.
By Imitating excellent action made by my colleagues, I can absorb a lot of skills and knowledge.
Although I established my growth philosophy almost a years ago, it is recently that my experience demonstrated that my theory is right and I was on the right track.
I can have an optimistic view about my future now.
Leave from a comfort zone, get new skills, and live well!!!
I recently found out that learning basic IT knowledge is quite interesting and can be very practical.
My life is filled with IT blackboxes such as a computer, smartphone, Internet, server, network, memory.
With some fundamental IT knowledge, certainly I would be able to find some alternatives by which I can dramatically boost my productivity!
I realize I spent a lot time checking and deleting e-mails.
It might be a good idea to stop accepting a kind of mail magazines when I can stop it.
I unsubscribed some mailing lists.
Recently, I spent more time on learning IT knowledge such as Macro of Excel, Access, and Javascript.
They are really interesting and I'm sure I can handle my assignments at workplace much more effectively with mediocre level of IT knowledge.
However, when I participate in a new English class, I felt my English skills are below my former level.
It is due to the lack of the practice.
I found out that as soon as I decrease the time I allocate to practice speaking in English, I start losing my fluency and composing speed.
It is a serious fact. If I am serious about keeping and improving my English skills, it is difficult for me to focus on any other area than English.
TOEFL examination day is now appoaching.
That means I should concentrate on preparing for TOEFL.
However, recently I'm not so highly motivated.
This is primarily because I got a cold.
Another reason is that I lost clear vision of my career and started thinking about how I should lead my life from now on.
Although there are many things to do, I'm sure getting the satisfiying result on TOEFL is vital for me to graduate from English learning.
Without doubt it will enhance my confidence and motivate me to make more efforts to improve my self and to realize my dream.
Should I continue to work for the current
association?
Should I change my job?
I'm not sure.
It depends on how new personnel system will be operated.
If current seneority system will linger, hard working is unlikely to be requited.
Although it is quite clear what I should do now, I cannot concentrate on what I should do recently.
It seems to me I'm wasting my precious time by thinking about an unanswerable question.
The result of the TOEFL influence over my next to do list and my future options so I should do my best to prepare for the examination.
However, I continued to worry about my future. I wonder how I will lead my life, whether I will have a partner, whether I can find my current career significant, and whether I can be satisfied with my life without adding major changes to my current mindset and perspective.
So many things to be considered there are!
That's the life.
On the other hand, surprisingly enough, many young people don't seem to be serious about their life or think about alternative choice they have.
Are they contented with their current life? Won't they regret anything when they pass away?
As far as I'm concerned, I'm not sure.
Thus I will do my best to lead the possible best life for me.
Anyway, in the short term, I should do my utmost to acquire a satisfying TOEFL score.
That's why I'm typing now! More often than not, actions can be a better source of motivation and resolution than thoughts.
I took TOEFL on Saturday.
Because I got a cod and did much overtime in the week before the examination, I felt that I should have practiced more in advance.
To be honest, it was foreseeable that I would fail to ensure sufficient time to prepare for TOEFL in the week just before the examination day.
I should have studied more in much advance according to a study plan.
The more I practice, the more proficient I would be as an English user.
That's a quite obvious idea.
However, as an old maxim says, easier said than done.
I think the score for this time would be about 98. That is slightly below my target score.
I might have to retake the test to get a satisfying result.
That's why I'm now typing in English. The amount of the opportunity makes a great difference in my growth speed.
As soon as I stop writing or speaking in English on a regular basis, my skills will soon become appallingly low!
It is a fact that shouldn't be ignored
Although I was pessimistic about the result of TOEFL, actually I got 102 score.
That's was rather higher than my expectation and I felt there was still much room for improvement.
Since I thought I would have to take TOEFL again to get 100+ score, I registered TOEFL before my score report became available.
I will take TOEFL again this coming Saturday.
The fact I successfully got 100+ score made me much more confident than before.
Now, I'm confident about my English skills to the extent that I consider MBA as a not so distant future option to me.
I took part in a couple of MBA events including info sessions.
To my surprise, some of the Japanese Alumni of Cambridge Judge Business School had a strong Japanese accent and their English was far from perfect.
It seems to me I can catch up with them at least in terms of English skills!
Referral and Tuition are two main obstacles that I have to surmount to get enrolled in business school.
Of course, GMAT score and GPA can be problem to me but I don't worry so much about them.
Working experience is one of the more serious problems than them because I don't work for a renowned company nor I have managerial role.
However, as Mark Twain said, confidence makes everything possible.
All you need in this life is ignorance and confidence, and then success is sure!
I took mock TOEFL to get accustomed to TOEFL's format.
I recorded myself responding to the questions in the speaking section.
To my pleasure, I felt my speaking capability was much boosted.
My response is quite intelligible and there were not so many pauses nor repetition which prevented listeners to understand what I wanted to convey.
I'm on the right track! I'm convinced that I can be a proficient English speaker soon.
Although it is widely known to Japanese English learner that getting a score higher than 23 the in speaking section is really challenging,
I'm confident about getting that coveted score in not so distant future.
As I studied English so keenly, my brother asked me if I have a plan to be an English teacher. I answered "No" to him.
English learning is a source of my confidence.
By utilizing English skills and self-confidence, I want to actualize a sort of a big vision.
However, I have yet to set any specific vision I'm going to pursue after I wean myself from studying English.
Today I purchased ipad. It can be a good device to read electric books written in English because it has a good searching function. So far, I'm not sure whther that is the case or not. Without doubt, paper books give much less damage to my eyes than electric ones. However, introducing something new to my life is a nice thing. I shouldn't get stuck in a rut. I should experiment various things to optimize my lifestyle. Otherwise, I will regret many things when I end my life.
From time to time, it occurs to me that I should change my employer to acquire a better evnironment more competent colleagues, and opportunity to leave my comfort zone. However, colleagues I work together currently are nice and have a good relationship with me. The problem is not about human relationship but that of business. I cannot get convinced that the business we offer to a society is highly significant to the extent that I feel like devoting my life to keep that business operated.
Recently, I seldom use my ipad.
It is simply because there are some copied books to read and I didn't start reading electric books with my ipad.
When it comes to web surfing, ipad is far from the best device because it doesn't have keyboard.
Although I have registered for TOEIC SW, I haven't practice English writing and speaking sufficiently to get a possible highest score to me.
It seems to me I have some important items on my to do list. Sometimes, I feel like stopping English learning to concentrate on other things such as designing my career path or finding a partner.
Fortunately, I succeeding invinting a female coworker to dinner. She accepted my proposal. She come across as extroverted and gregarious.
This is a big milestone to me.
Recently, I listen songs of 椎名林檎. Her song has unique sounds. Although I don't like all of her songs, some impress me and I really enjoy them.
I like energetic song because I need the power of music when my willpower is depleted or I get frustrated. My recent favorvite song is OSCA. Music video available on the youtube is also stlmulating. I like that too. By the way, I had a performance appraisal from my manager yesterday. He said that he evaluate my competence and motivation highly but that it is unlikely for me to get a satisfactory score for this time. This is how seniority system works. It's far from ideal human resource management system.
I changed my job in January!
I was seeking a more exciting environment where I can work with highly competent coworkers,
I used to work for a stable but declining association.
At the end of the day, I couldn't be satisfied with unexciting job, I wanted to grow speedily even if that growth is accompanied by hard work.
So far I enjoyed working for a new workplace. I will do my best to demonstrate my competence to get promoted.
I feel that I've got incredibly strong and resilient in comparison to myself in my childhood.
Recently, I got attracted by a woman. She is older than me and have high EQ. She is adept at praising someone and her smile is great. She often calls me by nicknames she makes by herself. I want to be her partner.
I think romance is an important part of a life. I hope I can learn many things and get closer to my ideal with her.
The woman attracted me left the company in May.
久しぶりに日本語で書こう。英語勉強のpriorityはもはやがた落ちしている。英語は有用だけどそれを勉強している気持ちよさで現実を逃避してはいけない。
若手がそれよりも優先すべきことは対人力、優秀な人とたくさん会うこと、稼ぐ力をつけること（技術力／営業力／マーケ力）だろう。
今の会社は外資で人の出入りは早い。現在の部門では既に私がエースだ。
最近は従来からの苦手分野だった対人力を鍛えようと思っている。とにかく人と会わないと。
街コンで出会った当初は人当たりが良くて可愛いだけにしか見えなかった女性が色々な人と会ったり企画したり努力していることを知り心打たれる。
その人も元来それほど社交的な人ではなかったらしい。やはり人は変わるということなのだろう。
私自身も１月の転職からほぼ別人と言えるほど変わったんじゃないかと思っている。少しずつだが確実に不確実性に対する免疫が上がり、未知の領域に飛び込む自信がついてきている。
これは非常に大きい前進。知力＋行動力でとことん突き抜けてやりたいという思い。
今の会社に残るべきだろうか。それとも、私を評価してくれているクライアント会社に飛び込んでみるか。その会社は今の勤め先より格上かつ凄いスピードで成長している。これは間違いなく大きなチャンスと言える。
こういう問いは考えていても意味がなく、とりあえず内定を取ってから考えればいいはず。
最近、行動や試すことによってすぐ解決できる問いを思考で解こうとする非効率さにようやく気付いてきた。不確実性に対する恐怖が生産性の低い思考へと駆り立ててしまうんだろう。
Power of yet Bias for Action 行動せねば！
３社目で働き始めて二か月程度になる。
２社目での経験が私をタフにしてくれたおかげで、１社目直後ではありえなかったスピードで適応できた。
早くも評判も付いてきていて、改めて自信→成功体験→リスクテイクというサイクルが大切だと再認識
あとは仕事以外のところでも成果を出していきたい。
苦手分野の人間関係で、女性と映画や水族館に行くことができたのがここ半年の個人的な大きなマイルストーン。
ちょっと情けないが、私にとっては大きな一歩。自分の人生を生き、楽しもう。
We are our choices.
peter wardのa new history of life読み終わった。地球は10階程度絶滅的状況を経験してる等面白かった。そして将来的には地球は太陽に飲み込まれることも確定している。その頃は火星が暖まって住みやすくなるのか。その前に地球は二酸化炭素が減りすぎて植物が死滅し、結果として動物が死に危機的状況になるらしい
土曜はブレードランナー、ブレードランナー2049、life of pieを見た。音声配信でブレードランナーを話す。面白くないと言う人もいて感性の違いを感じた。
日曜は生まれが9割という遺伝の本や、遺伝子組み換えの本を読んだ。映画第九地区、メッセージ(arrival)を見た。音声配信してたら、本を読む原動力を聞かれて面白かった。本を読むのに理由があるのか。楽しいから、実用的だから、の二つか。
