Thank you for your time to talk about it to me. I think you need to take some times that you can relax. I really understand your situation. Students often have hard time. But, I hope you should not say that. If you say about your hardships so often, you feel bad more and more since you said that. You like to write Journals about any arts or something like that because you are interested in these things. However, it’s not easy for everyone to get a job. I guess it’s a little harsh word for you, but I want to tell you that. It’s more difficult to get the job you want to! Everything is depends on your feeling. If you try to enjoy that work which you need a lot of time to sort out it, you will be able to do more easily. If you don’t want to make your effort anymore, there is no way except give up. I hope you find “”the right way” for you. Good luck. (173words)