Just uncovered a memory I had stashed away.
I remember drowning the MC in some of the videogames I played as a kid, or just barely swimming to the surface in time.
Also finding ways to die as Lara Croft.
when we were playing, my friend(girl) bit me and it hurt so i bit her back as revenge.
but she made a strange noise, and suddenly the atmosphere became strange.
I snuck into my much old brother's room and found his porn stash,which included a lot of hardcore anime porn that I naturally gravitated to for some reason.I ended up doing my first reps to Bible Black and it's been downhill ever since.
One issue of a local gaming magazine in the early 00s just straight up had an article about hentai. It was actually pretty well structured, with the history of the genre, and the article had images which were on the very fucking edge of being considered SFW. There was an art of a girl holding a sheet of frosted glass in front of herself and you could tell she had pubic hair.
I'm a bushchad btw
I blame Metal Gear Solid for my love of voyeurism. You can sneak around, overhear conversations and generally watch people without them knowing you're there.
When I was a wee lad, I once asked a girl to show our peepees to each other, but she refused. I then asked a boy and he agreed, but his peepee wasn't very interesting to look at. Understandably, I grew up straight.
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It's a very long story but basically I wasn't sexual at all until I was like 15-16 and I met this girl in high school. She was insanely perverted and a huge degenerate, she was also very beautiful. I quickly fell in love with her and she got me into all sorts of lewd stuff like crossdressing and slavery. It was like a hentai doujin, had I been smarter I would have never lost her but alas I did and now she remains as a scar on my psyche. I think she's the reason I turned out to be a huge degenerate
I found my father's old playboy magazines from the 70s when I was 11 years old. Ever since then I've had an unquenchable thirst for cone shaped titties
My sexual awakening happened very early at age 9 or 10 I watched the
Disney movie Hercules and found that the character Meg made me feel
odd. My parents caught me touching myself whenever she appeared.
They continue to tell this story at family gatherings to this day.
I still love brunettes and avoid women with any other color hair.
Before I even hit puberty I really liked kissing girls. I would come up with crazy schemes and games to get girls to kiss me, I never learned this behavior I just had an inner desire to kiss cute girls
when i was a grade schooler, my older sister's friend used to mess with me and play small pranks on me, giggling and calling me cute whenever i got mad or annoyed. one time when she came over, she bothered me until she got me to wear a skirt and let her paint my nails. when she said "you're so cute" and giggled, i pretended to be mad and embarrassed, but inside i started to feel like maybe i really was cute; this was the beginning of my crossdressing habit.
It happened when I was 12 or 13, I fell asleep on the couch with the TV on, and woke up late at night when the "adult" movies played. It was a SM movie about some woman joining a sex-cult. That movie taught me how fapping worked, and that I'm an S.
When I was a child, my school took a trip to France to see the Louvre. There I encountered Rembrandt's "Bathsheba at Her Bath". When I first saw that, with her feet being carefully washed, I got a boner. We were given a booklet with photos of the various works of art displayed and I cut out just the part with her feet and hung it in my room for a while. That picture has since been replaced with a certain polar bear's feet.
When I was like 8 I was about to go to sleep and I don't remember how it happened but for some reason I started playing with my penis because it felt good. I was lying in bed next to my aunt and when she saw me she started laughing and telling me to not do it in front of her.
There was also the time when I first met one of my distant cousins (I was like 10 or 11 I think). We started secretly holding hands whenever our families met, then kissing and eventually making out (no sekkusu). This went on for like 6 years until me and my family moved to a different state and I haven't seen her since, but I found her on facebook and turns out she's a lesbian now. SAD! But not surprising, she was quite the tomboy and always took the lead during our make-out sessions.
Around my early teenage years I didn't know what masturbating was.
My friends told me about it, which prompted a 2 hour session when I got home. Nutting for the first time scred the fuck out of me
My memory little bit fuzzy about the exact moment but i think it was when i first watched the kiss scene from "all the things she said" MV by t.A.T.u. when i was a kid
Well, either that or when my at the time baby sitter molested me multiple times in the course of a year.
In middle school, I read a book called "After the First Death" which needlessly describes the high-school protagonist peeing her pants and taking off her wet panties. It describes her airing out her chafed private parts and putting her jeans back on. She doesn't wear panties for the rest of the book. I have a pee fetish which rages to this day.
A good chunk of my fetishes were awakened because of the expressions artists draw the girls in.
So for example, I'm not into ryona, but if the girl is a massive M and she's shown enjoying it, then that turns me on. Same with futa stuff and girls peeing.
Also... the two weeks of noreps got me into edging...
When I was in 2nd grade I was at a friend's house I got tricked into being alone in a room with a girl. She was smaller than me with long black hair and within seconds she tackled me to the ground.
She started beating me up and wrestling with me. I became aroused which she noticed and it made her smile. Before anything else could happen my parent arrived to take me home.
No girl has ever been interested in me since. I just want a girl to like me and hurt me (physically). Rope soon maybe.
My sister is 2 years older than me. As we grew together, I gradually realized that she was very cute. Her straight black hair was very silky and glistened in light. She was very petite and had pale arms and milky hands. She loved to cook and I loved to watch her hands at work, making ramen. Her delicate fingers would squeeze the noodles - momi momi, momi momi. I started to fall in love with my sister. When she went to take a bath, I would put her fresh warm panties on my face. The smell of the crotch was intoxicating and I just had to bury my nose in the cotton fabric. Her panties always smelled of pee and mucus.
My sister became pretty famous among certain people. Even you might have heard of her. Her name is Chihiro Kumagai.
One night I had to sleep in my older sister's room and we ended up making out and rubbing on each other. She was 12 and I was 10. I guess since she initiated the act she technically molested me
the first character i had the hots for was Blaze the Cat from Sonic. It even made me learn what e621 was. However I am not a furry. I still think those initial attributes of a mature woman who still has somewhat small breasts is still my preferred type. Too bad that's pretty rare, and instead small chests belong to certain "UOOOOOOOH" type of character :( Not the furry type though no ma'am i am not a furry.
When I was a child I was left in the care of my 4 cousins the daughters of my mother's sister, they treated me as if I was their little brother, always giving me kisses or buying me candy, when i turned 10 years old i remember watching one of my cousins changing her shirt for some strange reason that i didn't understand at that time i started to feel weird when i saw her and i discovered masturbation because of an episode of american dad it's seth macfarlane fault that i started to masturbate in my early teenage years
I had my first crush on a girl in the 3rd grade. I would stay up at night and imagine scenarios where we would be forced to have sex (as I understood it at the time). This went on for two years for the same girl.
I found a porn mag in a bush when my age was in single digits, I shit you not. And inside there was a page with a dude and a woman both standing up, dude having his benis up her arse. It didn't arouse me but I was aware that it was sexual in nature. That said you would see porn mags being sold out in the open at newspaper kiosks.
Unrelated to it, first time I did hand reps (while being fully aware of what I was actually doing, because the habit itself was old) I was around 11 I think.
When I was 10yo I unitentionally had first painful orgasm from scratching my dick through underwear while watching some shitty striptease show on the TV late night.
After that I was pretty curious about what happened and continued this practice regularly.
Not so long time later I started to creep in secret on my female classmates and masturbate to them in my head everyday, and collecting fap folders with ecchi wallpapers from the CD's from video games/anime manga magazines.
I don't know a definitive moment, but when I was a kid the transformation and soul swapping type of sequences in cartoons and other media (particular examples would be the sequence in Digimon Season 3, and the one time Ash swapped into Pikachu's body in Pokemon) always interested me in a special way that I couldn't understand at the time.
Might have subsided by now (since I can't relate to those /become Lamy/ posters...) but I atill credit this a lot for my sexual awakening. Now I'm just a cringe guy who crossdresses despite being 186cm and a somewhat bulky build.
There is this novel called Night Chills that has a really hot hypnosis scene. To this day you can tell how many times I read that scene because the book will actually open up at that scene thanks to it warping so much
When I was 8 or 9-ish years old, my parents used to offload me to a village where my grandparents lived for the summer, and there were a lot of kids my age around there. In particular there was this one family with a blond girl about a year older than me and an actual bumbling retard who looked to be in his mid-20s, whom they were using for physical labor.
There was one time when we were playing together in that girl's house, and the retardchama was walking past us. The girl then pushed me onto the bed so I was lying there belly up and asked retardchama to grab and hold me down by the wrists which he did. She then proceeded to pull my pants down and inspect my benis. My memories end there but I don't think anything much happened after.
When I was in middle school, one hot summer our group of friends was going somewhere by subway. There was a cute tomboy that used to hang with us, athletic with spiky short hair. Since it was hot, everyone was dressed lightly, and the tomboyish girl had a short sleeved tshirt on. In the train she was holding onto an overhead handrail and I couldn't help but notice that her armpits were clean shaven, and she had visible wakipai.
There was another time when she brushed her (rather large) booba over my arm and I made a mental note on how soft and jelly-like it was. Later virgins.
Though I didn't get excited at the moment since at that age I had only videogames on my mind.
When I was young, my parents had a secondary house near the sea, and we spent summer vacations there.
Sometimes another family would visit us, and they had a daughter my age, 11 or 12 years old. The details are fuzzy, but we were playing tag and I wrote on a piece of paper, "Do you want to have sex?" She caught up to me and cornered me against a wall, ready to do -something-. I escaped and then wrote on another piece of paper that I was kidding.
I'm 30 and still a virgin to this day
At 7yo me and my friend started grinding and humping our crotches together with our clothes on. I think it was his idea, it felt really good and we talked about imagining a scenario with the other person being a girl we liked. This lasted for a few weeks whenever he came over to my house. We did it on my bed and in the living room. We were nearly caught there once when he didn't hear someone come in but luckily they thought we were just playing.
(Totally unrelated, I really like Shinachiku's doujinshi.)
Grew in rural town, always met with that girl from the village and we would go play in the forest or near the local abandoned church. She had a toxic family so she liked playing outside during the day.
Around 13 we started being more touchy, she liked fist fights even if she only resisted at first and then started letting me moving her around and laughed. and around 14 talked about "it" we the little we know from parent's comics and the rare internet exploration allowed back then, but we were scared to do anything sexual outside.
However we were curious with hormones boiling, so I stole a blanket to put on the grass in the forest. After flirting so much and being excited, the D day I went with a pounding heart to her house as usual to pick her up, it was something I've been anticipating for some time. But she didn't reply, her mother opened completely haggard like a witch, and told me to leave and Anna wasn't available.
Later I learned parents fought so violently the mother decided to leave and took Anna with her, to her own mother's house in another region. I didn't have any lasting relationship until 18 years later.
It's like I got stuck in time back then, and instantly get hot from reading romances where the girl is around 13-16, against my own will. I accepted it and now simply read loli doujins to heal my frustration forever stuck in that age and time. I'm not really happy about it but learned there was no use trying to escape it.
This will sound ridiculous, but my family never talked about sex, and in middle school all I was taught or shown drilled deep in my brain was that only guys wanted sex and girls didn't and would only accept it as an obligation to keep their couple or procreate.
So I got thinking they would usually try once and realize it's just annoying and then never want.
Since I didn't reach that far with my first "gf", I thus kept that idea that mentioning sex was gross to girls and that they would never want anything of that sort without gaining something from it, I was convinced girls had no libido. Worse, a later relation had the girl declaring she was asexual (when it was a trending thing on tumblr), which made it worse.
Later I realized that the facts showed it was false, but despite the facts it was hard to really throw that feeling.
As a result, my sexual awakening was slowly delayed and made me find girls to be really attractive only if I'm sure they're clearly into it/perverted/promiscuous, the more twisted the better, as as sort of needed revenge and to convince the brain it was wrong. Even vtubers, it keeps telling me 100% of the perverted ones are acting, even tho reality may be more split.
